Monday, September 12, 2011

Busy weekend but SO much fun.

This past weekend was certainly a busy one, but damn it was a lot of fun.  Friday night was our monthly barnight for our Leather/Levi Club, Panther L/L, at the Atlanta Eagle.  It was great to spend the evening with our club brothers and friends.
Then Saturday marked the 5 year anniversary for SIR Alan and I.  We spent the day relaxing at home with slave scott and our friend Thomas of LeatherHorseGear (  Then that night it was time for us to head to the local dungeon space, 1763, for our friend LizzyBrat's Bikers for Babies fundraiser to benefit the March of Dimes.  She shared a very personal story about how one of her daughters was born premature and the MoD helped her out when she needed it.  The event brought the fundraising totals to over $3700 so far and still climbing. 

Congrats Lizzy - We are proud of you!
 Many local groups/vendors/businesses contributed items to the auctions and Raffles including:
Southeast Leatherfest
Sir Nicholas/slave nic
DominaDea & Fetclinic
Atlanta S/m Solidarity
Lee David
Mistress Ayn
Ms. Martha
and lots more.

Then on Sunday SIR Alan and I were off to a photoshoot with a local photographer who wanted to do some shots with us at a local abandoned warehouse.  Unfortunately the Atlanta Police Department broke up our shoot not long after we started LOL.  They were really nice about the whole thing, but they did make us leave.  So we came back home and did some shots under the bridge near our place.  Had a HELL of a lot of fun.  Can't wait to take some more shots with Brent for sure!

Had so much fun shooting these pics - Can't wait to do some more.  Perfect end to a GREAT weekend. 
Now it is time to get ready for our monthly Panther L/L business meeting.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Emotional Release - Very much Needed

Something that I spoke about publicly for the first time at ILSb this year is the fact that my previous relationship was emotionally and physically abusive.  Before SIR Alan and I got together I was in a D/s relationship for approximately a year and a half that left me a broken man.  The worst part about it is that just like many in that situation, I didn't see the signs at first.  I lived in a world of denial about the entire thing because "No that won't happen to me..." etc.

Because of this past I have always had issues channeling much impact play.

When SIR Alan and I got together five years ago today, her certainly did not have the man and boy that he has today.  He has done so much over the years to help me rebuild myself into the strong and confident person I am now.  He has now helped me to overcome another barrier as well. 

This past weekend at the Northwest LeatherSIR/boy/community bootblack contest, SIR Alan flogged me for only the second time ever.  At first I was intimidated by the concept, based on previous experience.  However, trusting him as much as I do I know that I was in a wonderfully safe place.  The scene lasted probably 30-40 minutes and at one point I just felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders.  SIR Alan recognized the change immediately and placed his hand on my shoulder.  As soon as he touched me I started to cry.  Not out of sadness, but out of relief.  I'm still not entirely sure how to explain the feeling other than to say that the next morning I felt like a completely different person.  So much of the baggage that I had been carrying around for all these years was suddenly gone. 

This was apparently just the therapy I needed and I am so thankful that it happened.
I'm certainly not saying that this is the same thing that everyone should do to deal with their baggage, but it certainly worked for me.

My Updated Event Calendar




Trident Knights RunAugusta, GA
Aug 26-28, 2011
Northwest Regional LSB/CBBSeattle, WA
Sept 2-4, 2011
Gulf Coast Regional LSb/CBB   Dallas, TX
Sep 23-25, 2011
Southeast Regional LSb/CBB   Atlanta, GA
Sep 29 – Oct 1, 2011
Southeast OlympusAtlanta, GA
Oct 8, 2011
Atlanta Pride Atlanta, GA
Oct 9, 2011
Atlanta AIDS Walk    Atlanta, GA
Oct 16, 2011
Leather Vampires & Fang Bangers Atlanta, GA
Oct 29, 2011
Mr. International RubberChicago, IL
Nov 4-7, 2011
Western Canada Regional LSb/CBBCalgary, Alberta, Canada
Nov 17-21, 2011
Leather Mask Ball       Ft. Lauderdale, FL
Nov 25-27, 2011
Twelve Days of Christmas       Baltimore, MD
Dec 9-11, 2011
Twisted Toyland     Atlanta, GA
Dec 17, 2011
Northern California Regional  LSb/CBB San Francisco, CA
Feb 10-13, 2011
Eastern Canada Regional LSb/CBB   Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Feb 16-20, 2012
Florida Regional LSb/CBB        Tampa, FL
Feb 24-26, 2012
Southwest Leather Pride Regional LSb/CBB   Phoenix, AZ
Mar 2-4, 2012
CLAP/Mid Atlantic Regional LSb/CBB Baltimore, MD
Mar 23-25, 2012
International Ms Leather        San Francisco, CA
Mar 30-Apr 1, 2012
Atlanta Leather Pride                     Atlanta, GA
Apr 13-15, 2012
Spring in the South            Atlanta, GA
Apr 27-29, 2012
Tradesmen Run         Augusta, GA
May 4-6, 2012
Panther L/L Anniversary Weekend    Atlanta, GA
May 11-12, 2012
Southeast LeatherFest           Atlanta, GA
Jun 8-10, 2012
Rocky Mountain Regional LSb/CBB  Denver, CO
Jul 13-15, 2012
ILSb/ICBB & Dore Alley        San Francisco, CA
Jul 26-28, 2012
Great Lakes Regional LSb/CBB,   Indianapolis, IN
Aug 10-12, 2012

Monday, September 5, 2011

Amazing time at Northwest LeatherSIR/boy/Community Bootblack 2012 contest

Well SIR Alan have now attended our first LSb/CBB Regional contest during our title year.  We were very honored to have been invited to Seattle by SIR Hugh to stay in his beautiful home for the weekend.  SIR Alan, Luna, and I each served together on a judges panel of eight for the weekend.  The weekend was a great success with the Meet and Greet being Friday night at Doghouse Leathers followed by the Bootblack Interpersonal skills at the Cuff Complex, and the contest being held Saturday evening at the Cuff Complex.  This was actually my first time judging a Leather contest and I certainly enjoyed seeing things from that side of the table.  The contest as a whole went very well, and I would like to again congratulate the newest LSB/CBB Title Family, SIR Jim, boy danny, and Bootblack Ruin who will be serving as Northwest LeatherSIR/boy/Community Bootblack.  I can’t wait to see how they all grow together over the course of the next year. 
I can’t say enough about the amazing hospitality that was shown to us by SIR Hugh this weekend.  It is such an honor for me to be invited into the beautifully peaceful home of a man whom I have such a high level of respect for.  He treated SIR Alan and I like members of his own Family, and to say it was greatly appreciated would be a gross understatement.  We also had the awesome chance to share the House with my brother, 1st Runner-Up International Leatherboy 2011, boy Renee from the Western Canada region.  I’m not going to give any details here about THAT part of the weekend, but you can only imagine what happened when you put the four of us under one roof WOOF.  We even had the wonderful treat of SIR Hugh’s fantastic Italian cooking (he said that the dish containing two full blocks Cheese and other ingredients was an attempt to test to see if SIR Alan was really human and could gain weight).  I really enjoyed the time getting to know SIR Hugh and his boys so much more during the weekend, and I can’t wait to see them all again very soon.
I also had another fairly new experience this weekend.  During the play party Saturday Night at Lady Lydia’s dungeon space SIR Alan flogged me with his braided flogger.  This was only my second time being flogged because Impact play has always been very difficult for me to overcome mentally.  As many of you know I was formerly in an abusive D/s relationship (that’s a whole other post though) so there were some mental barriers to overcome here.  However, SIR Alan was able to help coach me through the experience without even saying a word.  About half way through he came up behind me and placed his hands on my shoulders and the dam of emotions broke loose.  It is certainly an odd feeling to cry that hard from the release of pent up emotions rather than from sorrow, but today I feel like an entirely different person.  I really feel like a compartment of baggage that I have been carrying around for years flew away last night, and I’m very grateful.
To sum it up in a nutshell our first trip was very fun, but I am certainly missing slave scott and our dog Sandy.  SIR Alan and I are on the plane headed back for Atlanta now.  I’m VERY glad that we have tomorrow off (Labor Day) so that we can rest and relax as a Family. 

No really... We are a VERY Serious bunch LOL

2012 Contestants - SIR Jim, Bootblack Ruin, boy danny

SIR Hugh's cat decided to energize some of SIR Alan's Leathers

Mama's Family